I was born in Bradford, north-west England in 1994, to a Pakistani father; who converted from Islam to Christianity in 1996. It’s probably widely known by now that apostasy is punishable by death under a puritanical system. The consequences apostates from Islam face in western contexts though, is probably less known.

My siblings and I grew up, witnessing and experiencing constant verbal and physical reprisals: moving from school to school, bricks smashing through our property and car windows, fleeing our first family home in 2005 (attempted arson), expulsion from Bradford permanently in 2016 (attempted murder on my father’s life, resulting in 11 days of hospitalisation).

I started this platform in 2014. Tired of conflating information about my family in the media, which only increased the likelihood of us becoming local targets. Purists who knew of us but unaware of our faces or names, were now armed with images of us in our school uniforms in mainstream UK newspapers. The non-apostate kids suddenly became ‘just as bad’ as the apostate parent himself and school walks for the sisters, who went off to different schools and took different routes – became especially stressful , as we were easily shadowed in person and in cars by local Muslim men.

I needed to claim our story back for myself – tired of people who had their own agendas to satisfy – constantly invading our privacy to expose this unbelievable circumstance in 21st Century Britain, and manipulating our misery to satiate the egalitarian inclination of the day. Only to disappear and never return, leaving us to face fresh consequences of the humiliation the local Muslim community felt, in a culture crippled by honour and shame.

However the Hussain Family experience has been portrayed to the world , the fact remains that is an unbelievable story. It is unique. It is a circumstance from which my worldview has stemmed. I am not an apostate myself, nor I don’t camp there. However, since I have never encountered another non-apostate who has been forced to undergo the apostate experience, I think it’s crucial I pen it down.

This blog started out as a defiant blurt of the truth. Years of external oppression and internal suppression spilling out post after post. This blog was a contingency: I had convinced myself after years of depression that I would die, alongside my family, in our beds at any given day. I felt myself slipping into indifference but this platform was a final push toward rebellion. A ‘well even if you kill us, somebody’s bound to find this on the public domain’.

I now sit in China, plugging away at whatever God lays on my heart. I have moved away from the sole identity of being an Apostate’s daughter and have passions, ambitions and aspirations of my own. I don’t know how to succinctly explain this blog-site, other than to say that anything you find here is deliberate heterodoxy in a world encouraging conformity. And so, in this vein, anything you read here is radical, but within reason.

This story I have lived is greater than I – so in spite of my introversion – I choose to walk in my truth, for the Glory of His Kingdom. And for those who may just need a different perspective.

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  1. Hi Anniesa
    I came across the post on the face book even it is old post it grab my attention and I was so shocked to see this happend in great Britain. I hope your father and family are doing fine tried finding your father on Facebook and tried texting him but couldn’t find him on Facebook after some extensive research I found your blog. I am from India and will be praying for your father and all family. GOD Bless….

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    1. Hi Uzwal, thank-you for taking the time to read my blog firstly. You won’t be able to find my Father on facebook because he doesn’t have an account. Thank-you also for your prayers, every Blessing to you and your loved ones also.

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  2. I just read through what your family had to endure, and it makes my blood boil… I literally have retrain myself going to see that pig of a niegbour of yours. I have seen him twice while I stayed at your place and even then I wanted to say something to him, but didn’t want to make matters worse for your dad…… It’s easier said than done, but we need to remind ourselves of what Jesus said, when he says blessed are those who are persecuted in my name, for they shall see the Kingdom of Heaven

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    1. Hi I am leading a small Church group in Bradford and I have raised Churches in India Pakistan and Nepal. We still have many India though I’ve not ministered in Pakistan or Nepal in quite some time. I am ready to stand with you and your family in every possible way. I am very much conversant with persecution and can tell you many things I endured whilst preaching to muslims Sikhs and Hindus. I believe that a change can be made even in the midst of such challenging circumstances!

      I’m already praying for you and your family and it had been my prayer that God would put me in touch with you. I can and I will help.

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    2. Hi Anniesa
      I am sorry for the extreme stress of being harassed and attacked by those who are blinded by Satan to do his will, those who think they are doing their god’s will. I brought your situation to our prayer group after reading the recent attack on your Dad. I am glad you are writing this blog and may you and your family all grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ. Surely he will strengthen you all in Him as you trust Him. I pray for your Dad’s healing from the attack, knowing that our LORD is the God of all comfort (2 Corinthians). Also that He will bring something good in the midst of your huge challenges. It is sad and annoying that you have not received adequate support from the church in your area… We should not be ashamed of the gospel nor fear man. We all need to awaken to righteousness.
      A sister in Christ.

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  3. Hi it’s Fyaz,

    I came to stay at your house remember… Your dad told me about your blog, it’s very powerful and well written. I suggested to your dad that he gets a book published as I am doing…. Please sit down with him and get your story published. I can get you a ghost writer to help….. It’s time we fought back through all means at our disposal…

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  4. I have just read the article on dailymail regarding the abuse your family suffered due to your religion and ethnic background clash and can definitely say that I am shocked by this. There are a few Pakistani Christians in Pakistan where my mothers side of family are from and they do not suffer abuse from neighbouring Muslim Pakistani’s, and we even have a close friend/house helper who is Christian. Islam is about love for everyone so the majority of us don’t condone such behaviour. Even though I disagree with your fathers choice to convert which seems to have caused your family to revert to Christianity, I think that we should respect all people regardless of their religion. I am also in shock on how you expressed you had trouble making friends with other Pakistani Muslims because in Manchester where I am from, the groups of friends in college or high school are quite diverse. I wanted to go on to ask, what exactly made your father convert to Christianity? Also, was your mother reluctant to convert and do any of you siblings’ follow Islam now or considered/researched Islam?

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  5. Hi Peter, sincere thanks for your interest in this blog, an amateur platform in which I attempt to create awareness of Christian persecution in between my university workload. You are absolutely right and should you ever return to the UK you would find parts of it unrecognisable, particularly in the North. The UK has since become religiously indifferent, thereby creating a vacuum in which Puritanical Islam has crept in. Sadly the Churches, government and local authorities are not speaking up against this Islamic invasion nor are they defending their persecuted brethren so this tide of intolerant Islam will only continue to fester and increase. The country is in need of much prayer. Thank-you for yours.

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  6. Hello Anniesa. I came across your blog after reading of the suffering of your family in Barnabas Fund’s newsletter.
    I live in Australia, but 40 years ago spent 3 years working in the east of England during which time I met a Christian and came to know Christ.
    It grieves me greatly to see how Britain has changed in that time, for the most part abandoning its rich and long Christian heritage.
    I also am greatly concerned of the persecution of Christians on an unprecedented scale, not just in Muslim countries, but also now in western countries.
    But we must not be discouraged and ultimately our battle is not against flesh and blood but against spiritual entities. When Christians suffer, so too does Jesus.
    We must persevere in making known the suffering of Christians around this world, for sadly it seems many churches are either deaf, blind or indifferent.
    So I want to thank you for blog and your efforts in making known the suffering Body of Christ.
    May God give you His strength and wisdom.
    My prayers are with you.
    Peter

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